Ummy #3

everything is quite ok now. it's like me entering a latent phase. not much changes. actually i'm in my 20th weeks and yesterday i went for ultrasound ~ the doctor said ~ my pregnancy is yet to reach 20th weeks...my fetus seems like in his 18th weeks...so she changed my due date from 22 May 2012 to 4th July 2012. well..it was expected..since i had my ultrasound just a week before. WHY??? well...ppl been telling me dat i look slimmer, which is weird since i dun really have much morning sickness or any other allergy. i've been taking my meal regularly. but still..each time i went for my regular check up..i had red marks on my weight column. it's either static or i lose 1kg. it should be a happy thing if i'm not pregnant, rite. and ppl been telling me that it could effect my baby. so..i'm kinda nervous. and at 19 weeks..i can't really feel him moving, kicking or whatever. all i can feel is, sometimes the bulge moves to my left or right. den i know that he actually moves. still..it doesn;t ease my nervousness, so i decided to go and check on him. that's why i went to a private clinic for u/s, a week before my schedule appointment. the private doctor said' my baby is doing just fine..but a little small for 19 weeks..maybe he's in 17 weeks. she also gave me a new due date...somewhere in early July.  so, both doctor said the same thing..so i'm kinda relieves, but i still hvn't gain any weigh since pregnant. i've been taking some vitamins and been taking my meal regularly. my problem is...i can't take too much food at once or i'll vomit.  so, i went for ' small but frequent meal' but..i'm still full, so i can't take any food until i'm hungry. it just dun work on me. i've been taking regular vits like folic acid and B complex, i skipped iron tablet since my HB is still quite OK. i took vit E 400u 2-3times per week, vit C 1000mg 3-4 times per week and calcium tablet 1000mg daily ~ i can't really take milk..so dat's y i took calcium supplement. ermmm...it's not really a BIG problem...but still, it's a problem. what should i do??

my hubby...i miss him terribly. srsly..i even question myself why am i missing him like crazy. he came home 5 days ago and went back 2 days later. and these 3 days without him feel so empty. on the 1st day, i can't sleep...really...i recite some 'doa' but still.....den i took his shirt ~ he's used shirt ~ smell it ~ and sleep with it. it's been 3 days..and the shirt is still on my bed. is it my hormonal changes? ` i hope it just temporary, cuz it's weird. even when writing this..i feel really weird. ohh.. of course i won't tell him. a call per day is compulsary, if not 3-4 short SMS is ok...but only for 1 day...next day..plz call...i need to hear his voice. yeah!!! i'm crazy for him!!! ugh!!!

Ummy#2

now entering my 18th weeks..yes..it's no longer a cute littel bum...my flat stomach is totally gone. but Alhadulillah..my morning sickness is gone as  well. well, my appetite have yet to come back to normal..well..actually i'm beginning to wonder if my appetite EVER normal..haha...
tomorrow i'm gonna have my monthly check-up..hope everything gonna be ok.well...at least i could hope that my weight is going up. i had a really bad fever, cough and a bit cold/flu. well...my sister was admitted to ICU and i was stressful mentally and physically. plus..i had some stupid issues wif my hubby..which turn out to be NOTHING at ALL! so i ended up with fever and very bad cough.
well..when my hubby was trying to avoid having little arguement wif me..and all i can think of is he's totally avoiding talking to be and began to wonder if he really loves me or care about me and this baby...and every night..tears never fail to fill in my eyes and i ended up with a very puffy eyes. yes..it shows my stupidity. i had my issues, ok....i'm pregnant, i'm tired, i'm alone and I NEED HIM! and all he can do is ignore??? well..he did explained himself..well..after i cried very hard...on the phone...asking if he's bored wif me..or he actually never loves me. he said..he just dun wanna make thing worst, so he stop calling and only asking related things. <----which make me feel like he dun care. but at last..we settle down..apologizing and forgiving each other.
ermmm...i guess, this little thing can make our bond stronger...make us understand each other  a little bit more. all ends well..my sister was discharged from hospital and expecting her 2nd child. hope she'll be fine!
and my hubby..he came home...to me..and yess...i miss him..so much that i can never express it to him..even now, when he just go back 2 days ago...even when he is with me...i still miss him. dunno..maybe i could blame this hormonal imbalances..or maybe my love just grow larger and bigger each and every day. yes! I LOVE HIM
before...i was afraid..cuz i was not sure if i really love him. we are not married based on love..it's an arranged marriage. and i'm glad i'm happy.

Ummy #1

oh my...it's been 15 weeks. is long, or short?? i dunno. there are things that made me think 'time fly too fast' and another that made me think ' erk...it's been 2 mins only?' haha..but i guess it's all about my hormonal changes. but at 15 weeks, i'm fully aware that i am PREGNANT. unlike before, when most of the time, i forgot...and when morning sickness came..it just hit me to reality....hey Mummy...there's this little one trying to survive in your tummy. please be careful'  haha
but it's all good. i guess i'm gonna miss that time. at least i already miss my flat stomach T.T ~ well..this cute little bum actually make me a bit overjoy too.